~✲ DayDreamer ✲~

It's been very long since my last post. Been busy for studies, and now I am called to the English Bar Council and I am a barrister now. Gosh, only the Lord knows how hard I worked for this to happen. I only hope my parents could be a little supportive towards me.

I am not a whining kid, but I just really need somewhere that I could say out my feelings loud. I can't do it on facebook I don't want random people (or some not-so-random people?) to read it.

Anyway, first I finished my bar school in first attempt (proudly) but what happen next?

I need to get a life

Okay, I am really interested in doing Family Law, which I don't know why, but that's where my passion is ok! So I was hoping to do my pupillage in a Family / Civil firm because my second interested area is dispute resolution. However, the most of the firms do not focus on these area, instead they do Commercial and Corporate more, which my no likey.

The above mentioned has nothing to do with what annoys me and bothers me a lot, hmmmmm, maybe a little.

I was looking for job and nothing comes up, so I decided to take a short break (like a month) to rest and think about my future (big) plan. And my parents were not supportive, AT ALL. You know, it's ok if they are just 'worried' about me, but my mom actually hates me I guess. This is all part of her evil plan to get rid of me from the house!!! LOL no kidding!

She was trying her bestes to annoy me, which she successfully done so. EVERYTHING I DID, SHE HAS SOMETHING TO SAY, literally EVERYTHING; from waking up in the morning to sleeping at night, from drinking water to eating dinner. Congratulation to her I am now fully motivated to find a job and move out.

I am just wondering what have I done, made her dislike me so much. I always try to be nice, because I felt quite bad towards my parents. I was not the greatest kid when I was young, rebellious and stubborn. Then when I grew up I studied oversea; I always felt bad that I was not home all the time, had been studying abroad spending all the pennies my dad earned with his blood and sweat; wanted to spend more time with them, especially my parents. But seems like my mom thinks otherwise, and in her mind I am now an evil person wanna to snatch my dad's property and with my sibilings.

My sister is having SPM this year and her trial exams are around the corner. Everytime my parents scolded her I always asked them to not bother her and let her be. Whereas my mom thinks that I wanted my sister to be an useless uneducated person so that I can be the only educated in the family. And she actually said it out in my face. I really sweat on this one, seriously! I asked them let her be because I really hate shouting within the family, I don't like to see her shouting at my sister and I don't like to see them get angry. And in fact I did saw my sister doing revision, which all her shouting was not even truth (same thing she did to me)! I just feel like we should give her a little bit space because she is a grown up she can handle and arrange things herself we don't have to babysit or force her to do anything she don't like it.

My dad is cool, to a certain extend. He is supportive, to a certain extend. I read law in my undergrad, and I really wanted to do something for the society. And I want to practice here in Malaysia because I am born here and this is my tanah air! For me, sometimes it is not all about money, whereas contribution to the society is equally (or more) important. I always say, it's not about the money, it's about the passion. I always passionate in improving the country, and I support human rights. My dad is a conservative man, sometimes (most of the time) we have different opinions on certain social problems i.e. same sex relationships, racisms etc. These are the common problem of why Malaysia is still being fogy because there are still generations could not be open minded about these issues. Well, I don't want to propagate my points here, but I really hope my dad could listen up a bit. We can't weigh everything with money!

So in order to solve this problem with my parents, I read a article. It says when dealing with the elders we have to borne in mind of one crucial principle: nod nod and nod. You just have to agree, and do not say anything hurtful to them.

In chinese we have a saying: filial piety as the first. Parents have done so much for us and we should not really tit for tat if they done anything annoys us. We were all born as dummies and they have taught us everything included how to live our life: eat and shit. And just because we are grown ups now, does not make us have the right to take them for granted, and forget their good deeds. We may have out own opinions now but it does not justify us to be rude to the elders.

Last but not least, Mommy I love you no matter what ok! Please sayang me a little bit more, keep my faith in loving you more and more.