i'm undergo depression..
so many things to say..
but i dunno where to start..

stupid district 9~
All things started there..
i dun wanna lose a friend..
but when i realised that we are getting far away..
i'm so scare..
i'll shut up if you want..

but please dun so cold to me..
i will never mention anything again..
but the thing i promised remains the same..
i still hiding in deep deep in my heart..
but i am worrying you..
are you so quite because of these??
or you studying too hard?~

Love is my everything..
but depends on who is the person..
hmm..
things are getting complicated..
why you choose to say it out..
instead of keep it yourself??
since you ald kept for so long??
somemore you knew it would never be ..

have you ever seen you in my eyes??

you dunno my heart..

now you are the problems maker..

on the most critical time of my life..
let me think how i gonna face you..

trials are coming..
the clock's hands turning faster and faster..
i feel the time so cruel towards me..
i need a rest..
and deep breath with FRESH AIR..
but everyday so many stuff to be finished..
things are never end..
homework are getting more and more..
revision..past year paper..
all accumulated on my study desk..

Parents are so caring..
every call i received..
reminding me to study hard..
my family cant afford me to fail SAM..
they never force me..
i am not the hope of family~
just because they never force me..
that's y i feel so guilty..
I am fighting for my future now..
trying to make my dreams come true~

I always know this is the life of teenager..
Friendship..Relationship..
Stress Stress and Stress..
but i did not know this will be the feeling..
a feeling that i dunno how to say by words..
I trying to be not emo..
I always thought a smile can slove everything..
that's what i told people too..
but it cant..
i try to sleep at night~
i try to smile at everyone..
i am changing my habits..
trying to have more relaxing..
but they did not work..
problems are still there..
i am going insane..

Sometimes i wanted to cry out loud..
but i dunno what i wanna crying for..
I wanna find a person to talk with..
but i could not..
Throught all these confusions..
i not only need consolations..
i need resolutions..
transformations..
mutations..
television..
anything can make my life easier..
When nobody hears me..
my eyes started to sweat..


To my beloved,
can you get out of my heart..
it's so pain~
because although we are not apart..
but there's still distances..
you cant see through my mind..
Even it is all about you..
I've locked it inside for a long time..
Now i decided to Cry
Let the tears wash the sorrow of my eyes..